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Last updated: March 25th, 2026

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That was quite the hiatus; sorry! I'm not great at sticking to long-term projects. I've been updating the site here and there but I have another project now— my photo journal— that I've been directing my attention to. It's spring break now and so much has happened, and yet it feels like the time just slipped away! Let me recall...

Went to winter formal with my friends, and even though it was with fewer people than expected, it was much fun and I'm glad I went. I typically have a huge amount of disdain for school events but, I don't know, I caved 'cause I like dressing up and I like dancing. It is what it is. Spending lots of good peaceful time with McShits. Concerned about other odd factors of another friendship that I'm afraid I started. You know the works? Just lots of movement in life right now. Quiet, small movement, but it's active all the same.

I'm absolutely obsessed with Pinback right now. It's all my brain wants to think about. I know I was a pretty huge fanatic before now but I watched that frickin' Cat's Cradle preformance from 2002 and the brainworm finally caught me. There are so many perfect moments in a lot of different versions of their songs, especially live, and I want to add them to the Pinback section of the site but seriously don't have the time to figure that out right now. Maybe if this lasts 'til summer I can try it out then? ;)

I'm afraid I'm going through a bit of a depressive period. I can't bring myself to put energy into a lot of things. I'm glad this is happening over the break but what happens next week? Will I be okay Monday? Will I have finally figured out how to sleep by then? And there are so many projects... I just want to do them. And yet I still can't.

In my mind, I feel like I've grown too tall and can't fit anywhere anymore. Like, lightning, hot and light blue, rises up from inside my skin and radiates out into the rest of my room. Like I fucked up and ate the little cake that said eat me first. I'm stuck in one room all the time and want to run as quickly as I can from whatever's trying to trap me. Is this what it's supposed to feel like? Hey, it's like the pain star! That's me, and I'm running in and out of lives like ball lightning waiting for someone to get close enough to reach out and touch my light. What an interesting way to live.

I hope next time I update it can be on a more positive note. I'm sure it will. Didn't this happen last year, too?